Remember Who You Truly Are
Does life feel heavier than it should? Or is there something you're ready to finally change? Thinking about it isn't the answer. Feeling it, deeper, is. In one weekend, you put down what you've been carrying for far too long and come home to yourself. Calm within. More loving toward the people you care about. Steadier under pressure. More self-belief. And real clarity on what your path here on earth actually is.
Free 20-min call · We check first if you're a good fit
You've done the work. Something still feels unfinished.
You're successful on paper. You've read the books, done the courses, maybe years of therapy. And yet a quiet voice keeps asking: is this really it?
You feel a low-grade disconnection from yourself, from people, from life.
You're carrying old pain or patterns you can't seem to think your way out of.
You numb out through work, scrolling, and busyness to avoid feeling what's underneath.
You sense there's a deeper, more alive version of you that you've lost touch with.
You've tried to "fix" yourself, but insight alone never seems to create real change.
You long to feel present, free, and genuinely connected, not just functional.
You're not broken. You're not behind.
You've simply spent years living from your head, protecting old wounds. What you're looking for isn't something to add. It's something to remember.
Your mind is built to protect you. That’s also what keeps you stuck.
There's a reason a single weekend can create real change. Most of what you carry isn't a problem your head can solve. It's stored in your body and nervous system, learned a long time ago as protection. Talking about it brings understanding, but understanding rarely reaches the place where it's actually stuck. This work goes further. It quiets the protective, analytical part of you long enough to feel what's underneath. That's how old, negative patterns can finally be released, and through the integration afterward, turned into patterns and behavior that actually support you.
The journey itself
The integration after
Integration is what makes the shift permanent. That's why a personal integration call is part of every journey.
Hi, I'm Ruben.
My first journey in 2017 opened my eyes to what real, deep connection with ourselves actually is, and how to reach it every day. I meditated more than 7,000 hours, invested over €75,000 in my own development, and learned from some of the very best teachers in the world. In 2021, I received the blessing to lead my own ceremonies.
96% rate communication with Ruben 4 or 5 stars out of 5 · 87% call it a perfect 5/5
"The look in people's eyes after a weekend like this… it's priceless."
I know this world is meant to be heaven on earth. Our conditioning is what makes us forget. My role isn't to heal you. It's to create a safe, sacred space and help you remember who you already are, at your core. After guiding more than 200 people on this path, I've learned this: the weekend itself will feel magical. What's even more magical is the person you become afterward.
Moments from inside the space.
A moment of stillness during ceremony
Held and cared for, every step of the way
The connection that happens when you feel safe enough to open up
Resting in the afterglow, held by the group
The space, prepared with care before you arrive
A shared meal, prepared with love
Sharing what surfaced, together
Settling in together, before the ceremony begins
Connection that carries beyond the ceremony
A quiet moment, just before it beginsA complete journey, from the first conversation through integration.
Our goal? That after the ceremony, you actually feel something in your life has changed.
A Safe, Sacred Space
An intimate group of max 13 people, a beautiful location, and an experienced guide holding the space so you can fully let go.
100% rate the stay 4 or 5 stars out of 5 · 83.3% call it a perfect 5/5
Preparation Course
Preparation is half the work. Short videos to ready your mind and body, plus a personal intention call before you arrive.
Live Music & Sound Healing
Ceremonies held with live music from singer-songwriter duo Anouk & Yora. Meet them below.
Nourishing Organic Meals
Wholesome, organic food prepared with love, so your body is supported throughout the weekend.
100% rate the food 4 or 5 stars out of 5 · 87.5% call it a perfect 5/5
Breathwork & Meditation
Guided breathwork and meditation to regulate your nervous system and help you stay present and open.
Integration & Aftercare
Sharing circles to process your insights, plus a 1:1 post-journey call to anchor the experience into daily life.
Held in sound by Anouk & Yora
Music isn't background here. It's part of how the space holds you. Our ceremonies are accompanied live by Anouk & Yora, a singer-songwriter duo of two sisters whose poetic, intimate songs (in English and Dutch) are written about life, self-discovery and coming home to yourself.
They've sung at festivals, weddings and ceremonies across the Netherlands, and their voices create a tender, grounding container that helps you soften, feel, and let go. Many participants say the music was one of the most moving parts of the weekend.
100% rate the live music a perfect 5/5
Are you actually ready for a journey like this?
This work is profound, and it isn't for everyone, at every moment. Take the free Readiness Assessment to find out where you stand, what to prepare, and whether now is your time. You'll get a personalized result instantly.
Take the Free Readiness Assessment →No password needed. Your honest answers, your private result.
Three simple steps to your weekend.
Schedule a free call
We'll talk through your intention and check that this is the right moment for you, including any medical contra-indications. No pressure, just honesty.
91.7% call it a perfect 5/5
Reserve your spot
Choose the weekend that fits you best and secure your place with a one-third deposit.
Prepare for a new you
Receive your preparation document, the video course for prep & integration, and all the practical details for the weekend.
What people carry home afterward.
In German, from a participant who traveled from Germany
And now every night, since I came back, it is still with me. I still feel so, so much, and there's still so much happening. I'm really feeling so much more powerful again.
It taught me how important being kind and loving to yourself is. I got my loving voice back. I saw my inner power and the importance of boundaries. It was so relieving to be surrounded by such a loving presence. It's insane.
I came in carrying so much I couldn't put into words. I left lighter than I've felt in years, and the changes actually stuck, thanks to the integration call afterward.
One of the most powerful experiences of my life, and I'm more present with the people I love because of it. Ruben holds the space with so much care and safety.
If you want to explore yourself more in a safe and loving space, I highly recommend this experience with Ruben and his team.
One of the best ceremonies I’ve been to. You feel the love of everyone around you, you feel like you’re not alone. It's the energy, the vibe, one big family.
Choose the journey that fits you.
Standard Journey
- 2 guided ceremonies
- Personal intention call
- 2 nights accommodation (optional upgrade)
- Nourishing organic meals
- Live music & sound healing
- Integration sharing circles
- Post-journey 1:1 support call
- Breathwork & meditation session
- Small group, max 13 people
- Preparation video course
Full Journey
- Everything in the Standard Journey
- In-depth video integration course + workbook
- Practices to finally understand what drives your emotions and reactions
- Nervous-system exercises for real calm, even under pressure
- Integration tools that make the shift stick in daily life
- Trigger work that loosens old patterns for good
- Breathwork & meditation for a steadier body and mind
- Guided support as the awakening process unfolds
- Ego-pattern work that sets you free
Journey + Coaching
- Everything in the Full Journey
- 4 private Zoom sessions (bi-weekly)
- Direct WhatsApp access between sessions
- Custom practices & assignments
- Emotional release & somatic guidance
- Inner-child & ego-structure work
- Accountability so insight becomes habit
Not sure which fits? That's exactly what the free clarity call is for. We'll help you choose the right level of support. Honestly, with no pressure.
Safety and care come first. Always.
We only say yes if it's right for you
Before anything, we have an honest conversation. We check your intention, your readiness, and any medical contra-indications. If now isn't your moment, we'll tell you. Your wellbeing matters more than a booking.
95.8% rate physical safety a perfect 5/5
You're supported before, during & after
This isn't a drop-off experience. From preparation to the weekend to your integration call, you're held the whole way. The goal isn't a peak moment. It's lasting change in your real life.
91.3% feel fully held and seen by their guides
Let's address what you're really wondering.
Is this safe?
Safety is our highest priority. We work in small groups (max 13), with an experienced guide present throughout. Before you join, we screen for medical contra-indications and talk through your situation personally on the clarity call. If it isn't safe or right for you, we won't proceed.
Do I need any experience?
No. Most people arrive for their first time. The preparation course and your personal intention call get you fully ready. All you need to bring is openness and honesty.
I've tried a lot of things already. Why would this be different?
Because this reaches a depth that talking and thinking rarely do. Most people describe it as one of the most powerful experiences of their lives. And we don't leave you there: with preparation beforehand and a personal integration call afterward, the shift actually becomes part of your daily life. A powerful experience, made to last.
What if I'm nervous or scared?
That's completely normal, and often a sign you're ready. Challenging moments can be part of the process, and you're never alone in them. Breath, presence, and a guide who's walked this path are there to support you the whole way.
How do I know if I'm ready?
Take the free Readiness Assessment above. It gives you a clear, personal picture in two minutes. Then we go deeper together on your free clarity call. No pressure, no obligation.
What does it cost and what's included?
Journeys start at €750 for the complete weekend, with two further levels for deeper integration and 1:1 coaching. Everything is included: ceremonies, meals, the accommodation option, preparation, and aftercare. We'll help you choose the right level on your call.
Choose your weekend.
11 – 13 September
Netherlands · Friday to Sunday
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Note: Anouk & Yora are not performing this weekend
6 – 8 November
Netherlands · Friday to Sunday
We only run a handful of these weekends each year. Once a date is full, the next opening is often months away.
The life you sense is possible starts with one honest conversation.
Book a free 20-minute clarity call. We'll discuss your intention, answer your questions, and find out together whether this is the right moment for you. Is this not the right moment? Then we'll say so, honestly.
Free · 20 minutes · No pressure · We check fit & safety first